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Thursday, May 17, 2012

drip drip drip

Is it ok to pray for things like--let there be just enough coffee for ONE cup this morning...I think I shook out every last ground into the coffee maker. Ok, how about if I just cross my fingers? (and chant: please please please).

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

My decision about birthdays ...for the next year...

5/13/2012

Dear Friends,

As many of you know, I am on a journey to discovering what 40 means to me. One of my passions and causes that I have always had a special place in my heart for is the issue of homelessness and poverty.    Last year, I asked you to forgo gifts for my birthday, and join me in a volunteering activity instead.  This past Christmas, I asked that you not buy gifts for Maris but instead donate to one of three causes, if you felt so inclined.  Looking ahead into this year of being 40, I have decided that for the remainder of the year, and I hope this is is acceptable to you, my friends-- I would like to forgo standard gifts in lieu of a donation in your name to the Faith Mission, Salvation Army, and Habitat for Humanity services.  This will occur from this point on until my next birthday in 2012.  I would also like to ask that for my 41st birthday that you forgo a gift to me and simply make a donation, if you are so inclined, to one of the previously mentioned organizations.  When it is your birthday, I will send you a card, and I will let you know where “your” dollars went.  Despite our many trials, each of us is blessed in ways.  It is my hope that through this philanthropy, we can provide a brighter day for someone else.  Happy Birthday, friends.  Wish big.

Love,
Michelle

This song just popped in my head as I finished creating this blogspace...

"You don't know where and you don't know when.
But you still got your words and you got your friends.
Walk along to another day.
Work a little harder, work another way."


~it kinda defines where I'm at...

Well...here it is!! MY BLOG!!

"breathe in...breathe out...move on"---words from a friend a year ago-it was written on a post-it, stuck to a file cabinet-
it stayed there for days, weeks, months-until I finally took the physical reminder down-tossed it in the trash-

but it has stayed with me...and I am reminded of it-often-at the quietest moments of the day
not during the chaotic rushes of drama
but in the quiet moments
breathe in
breathe out
move on.
breathe in
breathe out
move on.

5/14/2012...week 12 of 40.

Week 12 of 40...(yes, a day late): Fight for what and who you want in your life and let the rest go. When you feel pure joy...it can actually give you a joyful headache. Second chances are important, but choose carefully who gets them. Vodka can feel like an old friend. And, I am soooo excited that I figured out how I want to honor my 40 self and my beliefs and passions...details coming soon. :)

5/6/2012...week 11 of 40

Week 11 of 40. I learned to say NO early into my 30's...I need to re-visit that lesson. It is important to remember that when you are genuinely a giving person-whether or not it is reciprocated isn't the point UNTIL you feel taken advantage of...then it is time to re-evaluate the relationship, and you should. And, wearing the pre-baby skinny jeans...sadly...didn't give me the "oomph" I thought it... would (but I am still glad I got back into them). Spending time with my best friend of over 25 years soothes me and cracks me up. I am grateful to have the wisdom to know how to maintain a friendship without ever letting other relationships break what we have. And communicating without my intentions being misunderstood...currently working on that...

4/29/2012...week 10 of 40

Week 10 of 40... Perseverance DOES work. I didn't give up...and it paid off (a little shout out to some friends who stood beside me-you know who you are). Maya Angelou was right: "When people show you who they are, believe them the first time." Snuggling with my daughter brings me more joy than I could have ever imagined, but I also know...how important it is to take care of her mom and dad...marriage is work...and worth every moment. And in the words of Tim, "hearing the words 'big glass of red wine' makes me happy."